~ Ask of You ~ © 12-16-97 Lori

oh Lord I know I have asked;
and you took me away from the pain I once had;
the sadness that was so immense for that little girl;
you listened to my fears; you wiped my tears;
I did not understand at the time
why this little girl had to live so much sadness;
for that pain made me stronger;
made me who I am today;
and is only you I have to thank for that;

many years have passed; now my pain has come back;
I’m not that little girl that begged for your help;
now I’m the woman that needs your guidance;
I feel guilty for asking your help again;
that little girl needed you more;
but this woman hurts with pain;

There is answers I can not find;
oh Lord I have tried;
I’m not asking for riches, or things I don’t need;
I just ask of you to show me the way;
give me the strength to do what I need;
all I want is the pain in my heart to stop hurting;

I ask you,
how can someone that has so much be so unhappy;
you have taught me to give; and that is what I have did;
you taught me to love; and to see the good in all;
you have taught me honesty; a precious gift;

I made you a promise as a little girl;
that I would do all of this;
if you would brighten my world;
I have kept my promise as you did;

But Lord there is one thing you did not teach me;
for how do I live life to my fullest
without causing others pain;
for what if my wants are different from others;
do I bare the pain and do what they want;
for years I let people tell me what I wanted;
and that was acceptable;
but for some reason I don’t understand why;
my heart wont let that be anymore;
I wish it would for that would make life so easy;

You taught me not to hurt others;
and I don’t know how to do this without hurting others;
through my life
I would take the pain so others would not have to bare it;
but now I have come to a dead end;
for I can not live life like this anymore;

Now I have to make a choice;
all I ask of you is to point me in the right direction;
that’s all I ask of you;

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